Heartbroken mom whose daughter was killed says she's still waiting to wake up from the nightmare
Sahra Bulle was reported missing on May 26
Mornings are the hardest time for Fartumo Kusow since the death of her daughter Sahra Bulle. Each morning she's forced to remember her nightmare is real.
Kusow said her family is struggling in the wake of Sahra's death — but she is hoping to reach other women who might be facing intimate partner violence.
"It's still not really real," Kusow said. "I'm still waiting to wake up from this nightmare."
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Sahra's body was located on June 6. It came a day after Windsor police announced a first-degree murder charge against her estranged husband, Brian Aaron Marbury. Sahra had been missing since May 26.
The allegations against Marbury has not yet been tested before the courts.
Kusow said her daughter was with Marbury since she was 18 — the couple had even lived with Kusow for a time. Her daughter was once again attempting to leave, she said, and was staying at Windsor's Hiatus House when she went missing.
Kusow said she last spoke with her daughter on Friday, May 26, while Sahra was on her way home from work.
"She seemed really to be turning a corner and happy," Kusow said.
As the mother of an adult, Kusow said she wasn't allowed to communicate with doctors and other advocates to share with them what she knew. If she had, Kusow said she believes her daughter would be alive today.
"I think my daughter has never received a full risk assessment, somebody in authority to tell her, 'this is the risk you're facing,'" Kusow said. "I was the only one saying (it) and and you know … you always think (your) mother is exaggerating.
"I could never really get anybody outside of the family to sit with her because she wasn't giving a full account of what has been happening, at least as far as I could tell."
Kusow said she feels the system isn't set up to work for women who are trying to leave unhealthy relationships. Sahra was smart, her mother said. But she was also "loyal to a fault," something that hindered her efforts to leave.
"If she saw another woman that (this) happened to, she'd be the first to stand up," Kusow said. "It was so hard for her to see it in herself and to see that she was also a victim ... I don't think she appreciated the magnitude of the danger she faced."
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Sahra was incredibly smart, her mother said, a natural caregiver who nurtured her younger siblings. She called her youngest sister "sweet angel." She loved Russian literature.
The family came to Canada when Sahra was seven, leaving civil war in Somalia.
"It would almost be better if … some stranger had to do with her death, because this is the man she loved and committed all her adult life (to), Kusow said. "I still don't know why it had to be like this."
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The Windsor Mosque recently held a prayer for Sahra, and a vigil is planned for this Saturday. Kusow said it brings her comfort to see the community coming together for her daughter.
Kusow said she wishes more people could have helped Sahra realize the risks she was facing at every turn.
It has been hard for the family to cope in the wake of her death, Kusow said, in part because they were all frustrated with Sahra for not leaving.
But seeing Marbury face charges "doesn't do anything" for her family, she said. She has committed to attending a trial, if there is one, on Sahra's behalf.
"I'm thinking any woman going through this or anybody seeing it, I just wish that the woman would be able to have somebody that she could trust, that she could give the big picture.
A vigil is planned in Sahra's memory this Saturday, June 17, from 7:30 p.m. to sunset at the Canadian flag on the riverfront.
with files from Nav Nanwa, Sonya Varma and Jacob Barker